Wednesday, June 23, 2010


So I bought underwear and a bathing suit. The store policy is bathing suits are non-refundable because of hygiene issues. I get that and I am fine with that. What I don't get is...why is underwear refundable? What non-hygienic things happen in a swim suit that doesn't happen in underwear? That is mind boggling to me.

Any how I bought 'slimming' underwear. Now when I out them on my belly does look slimmer. However I have a huge muffin top because of them. Now my current underwear is size large. I bought XL in these underwear because they looked small.

Now the question is do I want a fatter looking stomach or a muffin top? I think I will stick with my fat belly.

Alexism that I can remember:

Alex - Mom why did you and Dad get married? Oh wait! Let me were drunk?
Me - There was a year from the time he asked me to the time we got married. So if that was the reason I would have had to have been drunk for a year.
Alex - You were drunk for a year?
Me - No! I married him because I love him!

This one was a while back. She asked if we could take in another kid. A kid around 5 or 6. She needs another kid because she is tried of loosing at checkers to Fat Tony (cat).


Oh my camo pants. I was looking for them the other morning. I looked in dryer - there was 3 or 4 things in there - no camo pants. Looked in my basket, Alex's basket, the washer and the clothes line. No pants. So I took everything out of my basket and refolded it. Not in there. Looked in the dryer again - not in there. Took everything out of Alex's basket - not in there. Decided to fold the 3 or 4 things in the dryer and low and behold they were in there. All I could think was "wow these are really good camo pants!"

Troy has finally agreed to let me find a babysitter. I can't find one!! I think I will put an ad at the library looking for one. The problem is a lady I know who babysits will see it and I don't want to hire her. Her kids are wild. Her son beats up Alex and she doesn't do anything because he is mentally disabled. Well if you don't do something now, what's going to happen when he is an adult? I just don't want her. So I am not sure how I address that if it comes up.

I am hoping for a kid at Alex's school. Then in September they can just take the bus home with her and get off here. I have a few calls out. No one has returned them yet. I called yesterday. Not sure how long I should wait for them to call back.

I finally got my stupid garden done. I had it all ready. All I needed to do was drill some holes and nail the boards down. I was waiting for Troy because he was going to do that part. He was just sweeping the garage. I waited and waited and waited. He was making me wait on purpose. So finally I got sick of waiting (I had other things to do) so I just started drilling myself. Well that got him out of the garage pretty darn fast!!

Monday, June 14, 2010

stupid gardens!!!

Why oh why did I want to put in gardens!!! Have you ever seen a movie where someone digs up a grave or treasure? Well they are such liers!! It is no where near as easy as they make it look. It is back breaking labour. Even worse when your crappy husbands just sits there and watches you. It is my garden so I have to do the work. Stupid garden.

If I ever decide to put another garden in - shoot me!! Really do it!! It is a lot of hard work. The next house I am buying will already have flower beds in and I am keeping them and that is that!

I am loving the trailer. It is nice to have a place to go. I can't get cellphone there and at 1st I thought it would really bother me (because I am a slave to my phone) but it doesn't. I mean there are times would it would be nice. Like if I could text Troy to bring stuff up or he could do the same. But all in all it's fine.

Work really sucks now. Every time I take a shift that is less time I can spend at the trailer. I want the money but I want to go to the trailer too, lol. I wish Alex was done school so we could spend more time there. I don't know why we didn't do this sooner. Well I do know - no idea how affordable it is!

Alex is in a grade 1/2 class this year. They are learning sex ed. I mean Alex came home and was able to tell me how a baby is made and how it comes out. Grade 1? Isn't that a bit young? She said she learnt it last year - I wasn't aware of that. I mean I have no problem with her learning this. She has books and stuff on it. I just had no idea they teach that stuff so young.

Monday, June 7, 2010

I saw this little girl - and she was a cute little girl, but her clothes!! She was dressed just awful. I hate to say it but very dorky looking. I am sure kids at school would make fun of her. My 1st thought was "why would her mother even buy those clothes let alone let her wear them?"

Them I look over at Alex. She has her beautiful pink flower dress on. Her sport socks inside out and pulled up to her knees and her black skull running shoes. I hate it when people make snap judgments about her appearance. They don't know about her clothing issues. There is a reason she dresses like that.

Yet in spite of the fact that I have a kid with issues, and I hate when other people judge Alex's appearance, I did the same thing. You would think that because I live it everyday I would be more in tune with it, yet I'm not. I guess it is something I have to work on.

We set up the trailer this weekend. Alex explored the camp. We found 2 clams with clams inside. Normally I only find empty shells. We put them in a bug box and watched them come out and go back in. It was neat!

Alex played with some of the kids at the park. I really could see how much her social skills are lacking. This one little girl was trying really hard to play with her and Alex wasn't helping at all.

What's your name? - Alex
Do you want to play tag? - No
Do you want to build a castle? - No
How old are you? - 7

At no point did Alex engage in a conversation with her. Just 1 word answers. I know Alex wanted to play with her but she just doesn't have the social skills. We use to roll play. I took her to play group 2x a week for years. I guess we still need to work on it. Even when she did start to play with the other kids (with some help from me) she seamed a lot younger then the other kids - even though they were the same age. Just the way they acted and played.

I am guessing this is because she is an only? Or is it something else? When she went for all that testing aspergers was thrown around. Now I don't think she has that. I do wonder if her lack of social skills is something more then just being an only.

I mean she has had plenty play dates and kids to play with. Is it just her personality? Is it because she is an only? Is it because I failed to install them? I admit it - I am awful at making friends. I can make acquaintances fine. But I have trouble taking that next step. As result I have always had maybe 1 close friend at a time and that is it. This makes me think my lack of skill in that department has rubbed off on her.

Anyway back to the trailer. We got it mostly set up. Troy forgot some tools so he will have to set up the sewage and propane next weekend. It will be just Alex and him at the trailer - should be interesting. It was brought to my attention last night that Troy and Alex have never slept away from home without me before. I always deal with Alex. She always has trouble going to sleep in different places. So it should be a good experience for them. I am interested to hear how the weekend goes.

There was a lot of kids at the park without adults there. I was the only adult. The kids ranged from 2 years old up to 8. I notices a few of the kids came from near by trailers so their parents could watch them from the trailer. But others biked to the park. Is 8 old enough to be off on your own on a bike at a camp ground? I mean it would be so much more convenient is Alex could just go to the park on her own. It is just up the road - however you can't see it from our site. I am just not comfortable with it. Maybe after we have been there a while it will be different. I don't know. I know I am over protective and sometimes it is hard to decide if I am hovering or not. How do you know?

I wish I had some funny Alexisms to add. But I just can't think of any right now.

So that's the report for today. Have a coke and a smile.

Friday, June 4, 2010


I meant to post this earlier - sorry.

It has come to my attention that the troll story isn't true. It is on Sorry to mislead you. A co-worker told it to me. I honestly don't know if she knows it isn't true or not. But anyway - so you know that didn't happen.


Am I really having this conversation?

Alex - Mom, can I try your breast milk?

Me - I don't have any.

Alex - Then how where you going to breast feed me?

Me - When you're pregnant you make milk. You keep making milk as long as a baby is drinking it. When the baby stops, you stop making milk. I have no babies to drink it so I'm not making any.

Alex - Why are your boobies so big then?

Me - It's all fat sweetheart.

Alex - (long pause) Can I try your boobie fat?

Me - Do you just want to bite a piece off or did you want me to slice some off for you?

Alex - No! I mean drink it!

Me - Sweetheart what do you think is going to happen?

Alex - Fat will come out and it will be like hamburger fat.

Me - That's grease - it is a type of fat. But the fat in my boobs is the same type of fat as in my butt.

Alex - You have butt fat in your boobs?

Me - (heavy sigh) Sweetheart you know when you have a steak and there is the fat on the side you cut off? That is the type of fat in my boobs. Only it's people fat not cow fat.

Alex - Well what fun things can you do with your boobies then?

Me - fun things? Nothing!

Alex - Then why does dad call them his fun bags?

Me - (Even heavier sigh) Dad shouldn't call them that. He does nothing with them. They just sag there like a decoration. Now go finish getting ready for school. I am not answering anymore boobie questions!

Do other people have conversations like this with their children? I mean really? Where do these questions come from??

Troy asked me to pick him up some underwear. I asked him what size and he said 'Fat!'. I think Alex gets it from Dad!

I know I have posted this already all over the internet but I am going to post it one more time. Mich graduated yesterday!! Super big high 5 and hooray for you!!! Great job!!

So I am down 20lbs and no one has noticed yet. (Mich I know you are going to comment on this but you don't count because I have been telling you about my weight loss journey. I mean people who don't know I am trying and haven't seen me in a little while). I really would love for someone to come up to me and ask if I have lost weight. I bought some large shirts today instead of extra large! Losing weight really sucks!!

So I was in the bank yesterday. There was 4 people in front of me in line. The lady in front was complaining about how long it took. When it was her turn she had to dig though her suitcase of a purse to find her 4 bank books. She then got them all updated. Took money out, put money in, paid bills. Then she stood there talking to to the teller. The other 3 ladies in front of me were in and out before she was done. When I left she was still talking! And she wonders why she has to wait so long in line! That drives me nuts! Have your stuff ready, know what you want to do. Do it and move on so the next person can go!!

And lastly..."If I were you I would...". No if you were me you would do exactly what I a doing because you would be me!! If you were handling this situation you may handle it differently. But if you were me you would be doing what I am doing!

Can you name the truck with four wheel drive,

Smells like a steak, and seats thirty five?
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Well, it goes real slow with the hammer down,
It's the country-fried truck endorsed by a clown,
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Hey, hey!

Twelve yards long, two lanes wide,

Sixty five tons of American pride!
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Top of the line in utility sports,
Unexplained fires are a matter for the courts!
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She blinds everybody with her super high beams,
She's a squirrel-squasher, deer-smackin' drivin' machine,
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